Now.

This evening.   Sat at home, under a blanket with a cup of tea to my left side.    The nightly chill is just seeping in through the wooden house which is my current humble abode.    My breathe is visibly tainting the air with its heated liquorice tea companion, my warmth is out exploring the winter cold.

This is my now.   This is the moment in which I am in now.   I understand this now, this now is simple in lifes complexities.   I am me, I am always me but not always with me.  If that makes any sense?  To have yourself for company.   To know that yourself is inside your vehicle, your body.   Sometimes our ‘nows’ wont be understood, most of the time they are not acknowledged but now is a forever existing thing.   We plan, we strive, we get there.   Do we acknowledge?   Do we need to acknowledge?   Maybe not always, not always as long as we experience.   Life is an experience, an experience with choices.

Choices are a gift, a learning time.   Sometimes a gamble, sometimes a simple concious step.   They can be overwhelming because of the concern of the outcome, the ‘right’ outcome.    But here is the other choice, the look of the outcome.   Right or wrong.   We know things, we have knowings.   We have millions of knowings that are currently unknown and this is the deliciousness of life.   The unveiling of a knowing.   The assurance of a new knowing.   We may act in the now alone and without knowing but the honest curiosity will drive.   Perhaps tomorrow, perhaps in a few years that ‘now’ back then will have perfect known meaning.   A clarity in that direction you took.

Be baffled, be lost, love your knowings and love your unknowings.    Let the now change because fundamentally you have no choice of this.  Your choice is to live all and everyone of the nows.